A week or so ago I decided to forego my evening trip to the Y and go walk on the beach at my parents’ house instead. The bright sunny afternoon promised to be one of the last great days of summer, and I didn’t want to waste it in a stuffy gym.
One problem, though—by the time I was able to get away from work around 5:00 or so, there wasn’t much of a beach to go to. The tide was coming in (high at 6:00), and most of the sandy beach would be covered by water. In fact, I got down to the beach just before high tide. But lucky for me, it wasn’t an exceptionally high tide that day, and even at the highest point there were patches of sand every so often. To make my way along, I drew upon childhood skills and memories, wading through shallow water and climbing along the network of logs that decorates the shore.
The beach is a different world when you are walking the logs. The usual beach profile includes the logs alongside the bank, then layers of sand and rocks (depending on where you are and what the tide has washed in), and sometimes a stretch of mudflats when the tide is out, and finally the water lapping the shore. The atmosphere is open and expansive, offering plenty of space to walk and run (for people and dogs alike). But when the tide comes in, your world narrows to a more confined space, a matter of yards between the bank and the water, often shadowed by overhanging trees and branches.
If I were younger I would play the game we used to play, allowing myself to walk only on logs without touching sand or water, climbing and jumping between them. “There are sharks in the water!” we used to say, to add to the challenge. (Although there may be an occasional dog shark in the bay, sharks swarming along the shoreline has never been a problem.) But in my adulthood I spurned the challenge, walking on the logs where I chose to (or where I had no choice), and splashing though the water or strolling the islands of sand when I wanted.
My balancing ability, honed by repetitions of the “tree” pose in yoga class, is pretty good, and I had little worry of falling as I walked along the narrow logs. But my balance skills are perhaps not quite as good as when I was a child, or at least my fear of falling is greater, because my knees wobbled a little whenever I got too high off the ground! So I (mostly) stayed off the higher logs that were suspended over water.
The hillside is covered blackberry bramble bushes, and in the late summer the berries are ripe and juicy. While these wild growing blackberry vines are a menace in the garden, on the beach they are a treat, both to the birds and to passersby wanting to pick a juicy purple snack. I climbed my way along the beach, stopping every so often to pick and eat handfuls of warm blackberries (appreciating the high fiber content of their seediness). Once last summer I brought a bowl down to the beach and picked probably a quart or more, which I took home and froze to eat with yoghurt or oatmeal. But today I just picked and ate, until boredom and satiety forced me on my way.
At White Rock (a large white-painted rock about three quarters of a mile down the beach, which has been a landmark for as long as I can remember), the tide was in far enough that my only route past was over the logs and trees surrounding White Rock. It’s a fairly easy path, though, because there is a wooden platform, perhaps a washed up dock or raft, which bridges the area behind White Rock. For the adult me it was an easy scramble past. For the child in me, or the memories of the child I was, it was a tempting stage, a pirate ship or perhaps Huck Finn’s river raft, poised over the lapping waves. I did not stop to sail the imaginary seas (or river), but I thought enviously of the fun we would have had there thirty years ago.
By this time the tide had turned, and more stretches of beach were accessible. I made my way toward Mission Beach (another quarter of a mile or so on), alternating between my path of logs and sand. When I approached Mission Beach I walked as far as I could along the bulkhead lined beach, until I reached a point where there was no more open beach. I took that as a sign that it was time to turn around and head home. Since the hour was approaching 7:00, it seemed like a good time to start back anyway, before it started to get dark. I had walked about a mile and a quarter, and had the same distance to return.
On the way back I kept more to the beach, walking briskly on the soft sand and rocks. I was no longer tempted by blackberries or imaginary ships—I wanted to get home and have dinner. The adventure was ending and reality beckoned. I reached the beach house and began climbing the stairs as the setting sun turned the sky pink and gold over the water. Perhaps tomorrow would be another beautiful late summer day.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
My Birthday
My birthday has come and gone, back in August. I've survived the various birthday dinners and lunches, and accompanying splurges (only one really outrageous, involving dinner with girlfriends, cocktails, sweet potato fries, and dessert). I've eaten cake without descending into diet hell. I have managed all this despite not only my birthday in August, but several friends and family members' in July, August, and early September.
Birthdays are a time of celebration, no matter how old you are. As a child, you celebrate getting older and getting closer to the expected rewards and privileges of maturity. (Although, once you are older, those rewards are less appealing. Once you get past 16 (driver's license), 18 (voting), and 21 (legal drinking), age related bonuses diminish quickly. Maybe being able to rent a car at 25, but that's about it! Oh, running for president at 35 is a big one, if you're into that kind of thing.) When you are middle-aged to old (and far be it from me to determine what age constitutes those milestones), a birthday signifies survival for another year! And that's nothing to sneeze at.
Now that I'm over 40 (okay, 42), I find that I am neither excited about my age nor overly disturbed about it. Turning 40 was a big deal, and I'm horrified over the idea of nearing 50 (many, many years in the future), and 45 I'm not too thrilled about either. But right now, early 40's, I'm okay with.
I was 39 when I made the commitment to turn my life around and get into shape by the time I was 40. I first came up with that idea when I was turning 38, but it took me a full year to get on the right track. Actually, it took me almost three months past my 39th birthday before I really committed.
By the time I hit 40 I had lost about 100 pounds and had changed my life and appearance immensely. I was by no means "done," but the changes were huge (literally). It took another six to nine months before I got to a weight where I have been relatively stable ever since. Stable in that "I need to lose 5, 10, 20 pounds and then I'll be done" kind of way.
I think of my birthday as a kind of New Year, when I reflect on my life and set my goals for the year to come. Like New Year's resolutions, my goals are always pretty similar each year. Lose weight (a little bit more), exercise (keep up the good work, improve where necessary), spend less money and pay off bills. My specific goals for this year are:
Birthdays are a time of celebration, no matter how old you are. As a child, you celebrate getting older and getting closer to the expected rewards and privileges of maturity. (Although, once you are older, those rewards are less appealing. Once you get past 16 (driver's license), 18 (voting), and 21 (legal drinking), age related bonuses diminish quickly. Maybe being able to rent a car at 25, but that's about it! Oh, running for president at 35 is a big one, if you're into that kind of thing.) When you are middle-aged to old (and far be it from me to determine what age constitutes those milestones), a birthday signifies survival for another year! And that's nothing to sneeze at.
Now that I'm over 40 (okay, 42), I find that I am neither excited about my age nor overly disturbed about it. Turning 40 was a big deal, and I'm horrified over the idea of nearing 50 (many, many years in the future), and 45 I'm not too thrilled about either. But right now, early 40's, I'm okay with.
I was 39 when I made the commitment to turn my life around and get into shape by the time I was 40. I first came up with that idea when I was turning 38, but it took me a full year to get on the right track. Actually, it took me almost three months past my 39th birthday before I really committed.
By the time I hit 40 I had lost about 100 pounds and had changed my life and appearance immensely. I was by no means "done," but the changes were huge (literally). It took another six to nine months before I got to a weight where I have been relatively stable ever since. Stable in that "I need to lose 5, 10, 20 pounds and then I'll be done" kind of way.
I think of my birthday as a kind of New Year, when I reflect on my life and set my goals for the year to come. Like New Year's resolutions, my goals are always pretty similar each year. Lose weight (a little bit more), exercise (keep up the good work, improve where necessary), spend less money and pay off bills. My specific goals for this year are:
- Reach my reasonable goal weight and stay there.
- Incorporate weight training into my fitness plan.
- Work with a personal trainer at least a few times.
- Find out what my body fat percentage really is, and perhaps do some additional fitness tests/measurements.
- Run the Whidbey Half Marathon on April 13 and the Robie Creek Half Marathon in Boise on April 19 (two half marathons in a week will be the closest I ever plan to running a marathon).
- Get my house back into shape.
- Work on my garden.
- Clean out my closets of excess clothes and make room for what remains.
- Spend less money and pay off some bills (some things never change).
Just for fun, here are some fantasy goals too....
- Be in the audience of the Oprah show.
- Run a half marathon in England (a fantasy only because it's in this year's list - the following year it might be feasible, when I can afford another trip to England and/or the exchange rate goes down).
- Write a weight loss article/book for publication (isn't that what bloggers do?).
- Get an arm tuck (if we're talking fantasy, there's a number of other tucks I would like as well!).
- Go to some social events where I can wear the fantastic dressy outfits I seem to have accumulated.
So, here's to birthdays, goals, resolutions, wishes and dreams. Check back in a year and we'll see how I've done!
Monday, September 3, 2007
The Labor of Weight Loss
How many people do you know who can successfully hold down a full-time job, and/or maintain a household (not me), and/or raise their kids without losing or killing them (again, not me, because I luckily don't have any kids), but yet cannot manage to stick to a weight loss or exercise program?
So many people are able to cope with job, home, and family - even when it's not fun, even when it's downright unpleasant - but fail when it comes to establish an eating and exercise program that could improve and perhaps save their lives. I guess with the job and kids we know we don't have any choice. We do the work even when we don't like it, because we have to, and the alternative is unacceptable (unemployment, letting the kids starve). (The other, taking care of the house, is something some of us have learned we can let slide without too horrible consequences. But undoubtedly our lives would be better if we got it together in that arena too.)
I think I finally succeeded in losing weight and keeping it off when I started treating diet and exercise like a job - something I have to do whether I like it or not, which may be unpleasant at the time but ultimately offers me rewards greater than the pain I have suffered.
And I have to keep plugging away at it day after day, into a future that stretches ahead of me with no foreseeable ending point. (Reaching a point of retirement is not something I can imagine right now!) Sure, I'll have vacations when I can get away and let myself have some fun (for example, eating scones and cream in England), but then I'll be back on the treadmill again (figuratively and literally), probably working harder than ever to make up for my hiatus.
This probably sounds rather dreary and depressing. It really shouldn't be. To continue the job analogy, I don't hate my (real) job. There are moments when I hate it. There are moments when I really love it. And there's a lot of time when I just do it, plugging through the monotony and periodic frustrations, enjoying the small successes and, of course, financial rewards.
My other job, losing weight and maintaining weight loss, running and exercising regularly, is such an ingrained part of my life that most of the time I can now do it on relative auto-pilot. I know pretty much what I'm going to eat each meal, I know when I am going running and when I am going to the Y, and I'm pretty good about sticking to that routine even despite the temptations of the outside world.
And the rewards have been huge. Well over a hundred pounds lost, maintained for over a year, and the ability to run half-marathons and still live to run another day! Furthermore, I love (well, really like) what I eat, and I like the feeling I get when I'm running and working out (especially afterward).
Will I ever retire from diet and exercise? I think I'll be like the job retirees that move on to other pursuits. Someday, when I'm too old to run, I'll still be walking and maybe take up swimming (hard to imagine that, though). Older people seem to have more delicate appetites, so maybe I'll be able to exchange my jumbo-sized vegetable salads for the small portions of "real" foods that naturally thin people eat. By that time (another 40 years, at least), I'll be a naturally thin person myself!
So many people are able to cope with job, home, and family - even when it's not fun, even when it's downright unpleasant - but fail when it comes to establish an eating and exercise program that could improve and perhaps save their lives. I guess with the job and kids we know we don't have any choice. We do the work even when we don't like it, because we have to, and the alternative is unacceptable (unemployment, letting the kids starve). (The other, taking care of the house, is something some of us have learned we can let slide without too horrible consequences. But undoubtedly our lives would be better if we got it together in that arena too.)
I think I finally succeeded in losing weight and keeping it off when I started treating diet and exercise like a job - something I have to do whether I like it or not, which may be unpleasant at the time but ultimately offers me rewards greater than the pain I have suffered.
And I have to keep plugging away at it day after day, into a future that stretches ahead of me with no foreseeable ending point. (Reaching a point of retirement is not something I can imagine right now!) Sure, I'll have vacations when I can get away and let myself have some fun (for example, eating scones and cream in England), but then I'll be back on the treadmill again (figuratively and literally), probably working harder than ever to make up for my hiatus.
This probably sounds rather dreary and depressing. It really shouldn't be. To continue the job analogy, I don't hate my (real) job. There are moments when I hate it. There are moments when I really love it. And there's a lot of time when I just do it, plugging through the monotony and periodic frustrations, enjoying the small successes and, of course, financial rewards.
My other job, losing weight and maintaining weight loss, running and exercising regularly, is such an ingrained part of my life that most of the time I can now do it on relative auto-pilot. I know pretty much what I'm going to eat each meal, I know when I am going running and when I am going to the Y, and I'm pretty good about sticking to that routine even despite the temptations of the outside world.
And the rewards have been huge. Well over a hundred pounds lost, maintained for over a year, and the ability to run half-marathons and still live to run another day! Furthermore, I love (well, really like) what I eat, and I like the feeling I get when I'm running and working out (especially afterward).
Will I ever retire from diet and exercise? I think I'll be like the job retirees that move on to other pursuits. Someday, when I'm too old to run, I'll still be walking and maybe take up swimming (hard to imagine that, though). Older people seem to have more delicate appetites, so maybe I'll be able to exchange my jumbo-sized vegetable salads for the small portions of "real" foods that naturally thin people eat. By that time (another 40 years, at least), I'll be a naturally thin person myself!
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